In Case You Didn't Know.

Sometimes I miss my Alex so much I feel crippled. It comes in waves, the sudden re-realization that I WILL NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN. This one person so integral to my life, so integral to who I am today. I am not a vindictive person in any way but I would not wish this kind of hurt on anyone. It makes me want to melt into the ground. It makes me feel so infinitely useless. God I fucking miss him so much.